Do you ever feel like people that you love and are close to you are lying to you? I hate that feeling. Sometimes no matter how much older we get there are still stupid problems that seem to find their way into our lives. Luckily, they are MUCH less often (THANK GOODNESS for that)!! My life is really good and things are just fine for us, so don't worry...I am not talking about me and Jeff. It is just really hard to watch people make the choice to lie and see the impact on others (often times, the ones we love the most) and sometimes feel the direct impact, in regards to our own lives, of other people's choice to not to tell the truth. I know that the truth can be hard to tell and/or live sometimes, but the benefits FAR outweigh the consequences of not doing so. I have been caught in lies in my life before and it happened more often than I am proud to admit in high school with friends or to my parents about whether I skipped school or not. I was fortunate enough to have amazingly good friends that even when I wasn't making the right choice I wasn't making very "wrong" choices (I use the word "wrong" loosely due to the fact that skipping school wasn't right but I guess at least I wasn't skipping it to do bad things. Here are some examples of what I was doing: getting hot chocolate at 7/11, which I am once again getting about once a day; driving to the only Cafe Rio within 60 miles on 3300 S. in Salt Lake; or just simply going to my house to hang out since both my parents worked full time) . I still have had the experience recently to see firsthand the destruction that lying can have on a relationship. Sometimes I get caught up in the day to day routine and I don't realize that leaving part of the truth out can also be a form of lying. I have had this topic on my mind a lot in the past few months as I see people that I care about and love go through tough trials unnecessarily due to dishonesty. I am not perfect and do not claim to be. In fact, most days I could be a EXTREMELY better person, but the one thing I find that isn't very hard for me is to tell the truth about pretty much everything. For those of you who are reading this blog I would like apologize to you if I have ever treated you unkindly, untruthfully, inconsiderate, unsupported or disrespectfully at any time that we have known each other. I want to always try and make the relationships I have with people more truthful, loving, considerate, respectful and spend the appropriate time and energy into building lasting friendship with those I love or even with the people that I want to be better friends with and barely have a relationship with right now. I want and hope to be the person people always know they can trust and will be there by their side for all the good and bad/ups and downs that comes with life. If I have slipped and lied or hurt anyone at anytime in the past or present that also reads this, I am truly sorry!!! I am also sorry for the times that I haven't fully told the truth to anyone. I am really working on making sure that I am a trustworthy and honest person. This is something that is very important to me due to the fact that I have been on the receiving end of many lies and hurtful actions and never want to be the cause of those feeling to anyone else (I am sure I have all ready done this in the past and hopefully will be able to right those wrongs). I have leaned on many people recently for advice, friendship, shopping partners, to distract me from my struggles or just simply let me vent. They have been some of my greatest blessings that are in my life right now. So thank you Ashlee, Brittany, Cami, Rachael, Tasha and ALWAYS my sister Staci!! Life has a funny way of getting hard just when you think it's your turn to have some luck (some would call it) or better known as: blessings (sometimes I ask myself why they may not be there right when you are ready for them. If only blessings came when we wanted them and on our timeline, right? :) I guess that it's always ends up being worth the wait). Thank you to those of you who have stuck around or have come back into my life recently and are some of my most enjoyable and valued friendships that I have. I am grateful for the recently rediscovered friendships that feel like they are better than they ever have been. I CANNOT imagine making it through life without good friends.
Also, I would like to assure anyone who has trusted me with any personal information that it will stay as personal information that only I, and I alone will know about unless YOU choose to tell others. I take this very seriously, as I would want the same done for me. I know that many of you know personal things about me and my life about I would hope I can feel the same knowledge and security with those whom I have chosen to trust and share with. I gain nothing out of betraying someone's trust. So please do not worry that it will be shared.
While I am on this topic I also have one request to make. If I have ever hurt your feelings and that is what is in the way of us picking up our friendship again....PLEASE give me the chance to apologize and make my mistakes right. Thanks! :)
(also, please let me know that more than 2-3 people read this blog by at least commenting or I will just start keeping an e-journal since my life is so boring. If anyone has any questions or something you want to know about me please ask so that I have something else to blog about. :) I hope you are all still awake after being bored to death reading this. :) I will post about how wonderful Thanksgiving was soon. I hope everyone is having a wonderful Holiday season and enjoying every minute with family and friends and of course (most importantly) amazing food! I hope that we are all finding ways to serve and remember the true meaning of the season.
P.S. I am sorry my blog has been such a downer blog lately. I am working on the optimism, but thank you everyone for the support and prayers in my behalf as you have read or heard about my negative attitude toward my life's "trials" (they probably aren't even trials compared to most).
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I read your blog! Your life is not boring :)
ReplyDeleteI read your blog Summer!! And don't worry, everyone has trials, and just because they don't seem big to someone else doesn't mean they aren't big for the person going through it. You are an amazing girl, and I'm glad we've been able to talk recently. Happy Holidays if I don't get a chance to see you!!
ReplyDeleteEach of us goes on a separate paths, but friends always reunite. It may be years later, but true friends can catch up right where they left off. I am glad you keep a blog and I can stay in touch with you.
ReplyDeleteI read your blog, I just suck at commenting! I've seen how little white lies turn into bigger lies and get people in a lot of trouble. It is a sad thing. Honesty is always the best policy! Oh and ditching school to get Cafe Rio was so worth it :)
ReplyDeleteSumm- I think more people read your blog then you think. You are very inspiring, and I know firsthand that you are trustworthy and dependable. Thanks for your friendship! Let's get together over the break.
ReplyDeleteI read your blog:) Everyone has different kinds of trials. I appreciate your friendship and love that it has become more has we have grown into adults(sorta), it is unfortunate that some people never seem to grow out of the phases of younger childhood stupidity. But I guess a way to look at it, is lying can be trials for other people, or telling the truth is their hardship. I'm not saying that its right, or giving any sort of excuse for it. I think its important to help those people, but also to not stay to close to the situation, or better yet, let them realize that you know they're lying? Sometimes they think they're getting aways with it, when really its the GIANT elephant in the room:) Hope you have a good day, and we are lucky to have you and Jeff as friends!
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